In Memory Of Toby

Toby-March 13, 1999 to July 28, 2009

I am so sad to say that I lost my beloved Toby on Tuesday, July 28th. Toby became increasingly ill the past few days and I ultimately had to make the decision to end his suffering and release him to Dog Heaven. The absolute hardest thing I have ever had to do was choose this for him and I will miss him terribly. When I moved away from home 10 short years ago, the first thing I did was go out and get myself a dog or two. This decision resulted in Toby & Sage and has given me 10 beautiful, enriched years with my buddy. Several times, more often then not I have spent many nights alone & frightened, in new places sometimes without anybody but my dogs, for curing my fears and lonliness Toby, I will be forever grateful. You will live forever in my heart and I am eagerly looking forward to the day that we can be reunited. I know you were suffering and I am so sorry for that but I know that has ended for you now and you are frolicking, napping, chasing balls, eating leather shoes, garbage and cat poop all you want. I will miss you deeply every day and you will never be forgotten. Thank you for all of the years of unconditional love you have given me and everyone that you have ever come in contact with. I know there was a special place for you and I guess God just couldn't wait. I love you Toby and I will always miss you. I am so thankful for my love of animals and I feel so sorry for anyone who has never had the privelidge of loving one. They are amazing friends and though it is heartbreaking to see them go, they so enrich our lives while they are here. Thanks to everyone who has sent thier love and sympathy our way, it is very much appreciated. In Toby's 10 short years, he has changed my world and I am thankful for that. Toby was buried at my parent's house on a hill with a beautiful view. He can be there with all of my pet's I have had growing up and right next to the sandbox where my kids play and can visit him anytime they feel sad or lonely. Greyson & Andee have learned that anytime they feel like that, thier pets have always been able to bring them comfort and I know that even in death Toby will still provide that for us. We love you Toby, you will be forever in our hearts! I need to say also that this morning my brother Dave and his family also lost thier German Shorthair, Charlie. Charlie was also a great dog and will be deeply missed but I'm glad that he and Toby can take this journey together. I'm sorry guys that you also had to lose your pal. My thoughts are with you also. Heidi

"Until one has loved an animal, a part of the soul remains unawakened."

Anatole France

HELLO?

Holy Moley huh? I know it has really been forever, I think the last time I blogged school was just getting out and now I think it starts again in 5 or 6 weeks! What the hell Heidi? Sorry it's not that I have had nothing worthy of bloggerness going on, I have just been SO busy that I literally have not had time or really felt like it. I began the long process on my teeth in the middle of June and it has been difficult but SO worth it! I must say I have seen many dentists in my 30 years but Scott Nilson has literally saved my life! Everyone knows that I am not religious per say but I am a person of Faith and I do believe in God and Miracles and Dr. Nilson was definitly meant to come into my life. I know it's "just teeth" but not to me, I have struggled for years with painful dental procedures, abscess teeth, many root canals and several thousand dollars owed to dentists only for history to continue to repeat itself and nothing to ever really get better. I feel better now than I have felt in years and my teeth are BEAUTIFUL! Of course right now it is still a work in progress but I am forever grateful to Dr. Nilson for the change he has brought into my life. I honestly believe from the bottom of my heart that it was Divine Intervention! Thank you Dr. Nilson! Other than trying to recoup from all that we have just been hanging out in the meantime enjoying summer. I did a craft boutique at Liberty Days on the 4th of July which was interesting. I was hoping to make some extra cash but it didn't do as well as I had hoped. Oh well, lesson learned I will NEVER waste another holiday sitting under a sweltering tent trying to sell my homemade crafts. The kids are excited for school to start, at least Andee is and I'm sure Greyson will get that way soon. This picture is bad I know but you can kinda see my teeth in it although I still have some swelling there. Hope everyone is good, I promise to blog again in a couple of weeks! Peace! Heidi